Just another day

I got up late, and Logan was already staring at the idiot box, no chores were done yet, but he skittered around to start (they are supposed to get them done before anything else).

I am having so much difficulty with my children these days. Chores aren't getting done, lying, hitting one another.....the whole nine yards. Something has to give.

First in line, I think is to chance the time the TV is allowed to come on. I, persaonally, would have it off completely, but Mom likes to watch it, so I guess we have to leave that alone for now. I have already blocked certain channels, but the children have found a way around that, and watch "on demand" TV. Today, that will be blocked too. Do you realize there are music videos and naked people on almost every channel there is? I thought I had blocked it all, and the other day, a naked woman was laying on her bed right in the middle of my living room! I am so disgusted with life around here....

I desperately need prayers and to be able to pray. My life is spirialing out of control. I feel I have lost control of my children, and I must fight to regain that. But first, I must get my own life in order. I must make Bible and the Lord my priority.

Work is going ok, I guess. We are accepting more admissions than we have staff to care for, and that's sad. But it's a "growing pain". We can't hire more staff, if we DON'T have the addmissions! Kind of a catch 22, but the griping in that place is horrid! And I thought it would be different. But it isn't, really. I just have to go my own merry way, and pitch in where I can. I worked yesterday as a CNA, kitchen help, and a nurse. But we had 2 folks go home sick, and no one would come in to help. Which I can't say as I blame them, most folks are tired because we have been working short handed, and they needed a day off, just as I needed today.

Mom is alright, I guess. We had a blowout yesterday cause she "didn't remember" that it was Sunday and that we were going to church, but she sure remembered that my husband had cigarettes and that she wanted one. And because she was smoking, she refused to go to church. I was livid, and acted foolish, but anger had me by the hand and was dragging me right along......

Now, I must go and tend to my family. I pray that good reports will be the next blog, and I will report what's going on. Just keep my family in your prayers, so that we don't fall apart, like so many families do.