New job

I start Monday with orientation to the company, and I imagine filling out the tons of paperwork that goes with a new job.

Then Tuesday thru Friday, I will be on the floor, orienting to the people I will be caring for, and the medications they take, and any treatments they require.

The facility is spic and span clean and is absolutely lovely inside! The residents appear happy, and so does the staff (but you never TRULY know until you are behind the scenes).

I think it will be a positive experience for me and my family. The only bad part is, I must work 2nd shift (2p-10p), because that is all that was open at this time. I will deal with what the Lord wants me to do, not because I want to, but because the Lord has graciously given me this job, and I need to handle it well.

I pray that my family remains intact while I am gone at work, trying to keep our heads above water, and that my husband is able to keep the children maintained (without starvation or beatings!~ LOL!).

Tomorrow I must go to WalMart and buy some khaki fabric to make a couple of skirts out of. Our uniforms are pale yellow Polo shirts, and we must wear khaki colored bottoms, so I have to make a couple of skirts to wear. (Why can't nurses just wear scrubs like we're supposed to?)

I cannot complain because the money is good, and I am implementing a plan to "GET OUT OF DEBT". I am 44 years old, and haven't got a cent saved for retirement. I just can't see it, and it is scary to me. I have a credit card that I owe over $12,000 on, and other bills from long ago that are begging to be paid also. Since I will be getting paid weekly now, and it is going to be direct deposit into my checking account, I plan on doing some serious damage to some of these bills that are holding us back! (Yea me!)

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Does anyone know what would make me fall asleep for a few short minutes, then wake up suddenly and ready to face the day not even 20 minutes later?

I can't seem to get back to sleep, and I dread to see night time come. It's almost midnight, and I am no where near tired, so I will be tossing and turning till probably 3-4.

Just old age, I guess......

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And these are my ramblings tonight, folks....I'm going to go toss and turn awhile more and see if I can't dose off somewhere.

Night.....

Sometimes life is hard..yet amusing.....

when you have a Mom that cannot speak clearly or use the correct words to express what she wants.

My Mom just got angry with me because I had to ask her what she was talking about when she came to me insisting something about "when you p**p".....I thought she meant toilet paper, which I knew there was plenty on the roll, so I went with her to look. There was plenty,but she flipped the light on and told me, "There! Is red!' and off, it was, "Blad." But she needed it on so she could go in, and I guess needed me to go see.

I'm not sure.  Gotta love her!

Memorial Day

Ahhh... here we are at the beginning of another summer season.....enjoying the wafting aromas of barbeques and the hearing the squeals of children playing....

Our family had 2 daughters come over and bring their little ones in tow...they HAD to get into Grandma and Grandpa's pool! LOL! And ride Papaw's Go cart.....

We had a blast.....can you imagine if we had all 9 (10 including our grandson we have raised for most of his life now...) children with all their children? We need a bigger house! LOL!

9 (10) children.....with 6 spouses, and 12 grandchildren (including step~ cause that makes them mine too..) and 2 expecting this year (both in August).

What a blessing the Lord has so graciously given.......    

Happy Thursday!

Oh, I imagine it was anyway.

Everything went rather smoothly. I went for my job interview, and for the most part, it was a success. She asked me if orientation on Tuesday would be ok, and told me of the duties I would be expected to perform. And where I would be expected to perform them... She seemed pleased with me, and I with the facility. But then I was told that another interview was to be performed, and she wanted me to come back this afternoon. I said that wouldn't be a problem, but when she didn't call me by 4p, I began to worry. So I called her, and she said that the other ladsy was help up in meetings all day and asked if I could come in tomorrow, but I had to tell her that Logan has surgery tomorrw, so she said, "We'll do it Monday then."

So how does that sound?

Logan's surgery is scheduled for tomorrow at 11:30am, but we have to be there by 10am. And it's an 1.5 hour drive.

I'm thinking of leaving about 7:30-8 in case we hit any big city traffic along the way.

Pray for us as we travel, ok?

Good Wednesday Morning!

Huh... added the title only to my blog... guess I really had nothing to say after all! LOL!

Things are ok, here at the Hatfield House. No major upheavals going on. Well, I guess there is one to speak of. My dear husband may be losing his job in the next couple of weeks, which means I have to go back into the work force. That's alright with me, but I will worry about Mom. She is so attached to my hip, that it's scary. I cannot even go to the grocery with out her asking, "Can I come with you?" I had to refuse her 2x yesterday so I could put in applications at a couple of facilities in the area. Dennis ended up having to give her a Xanax.

I had a long talk with God last night and told Him that since I am obviously terrible at reading what He wants me to do, that this one is completely and totally up to Him to show me where I should go for a job! He probably gets quite a guff at listening to me ramble on sometimes. I am so blessed to be a child of the King!

Been following "menu making" lately. It sure does make things easier around here! Granted, it's only been a short term venture lately, but I like making the children a healthy breakfast and knowing that they are eating well. And they even seem to be acting better! The 14 y/o acts human in the morning, and has even complimented me a few times! I like making bread by hand and knowing exactly what is going into my family's tummy's.

We are looking forward to homeschooling, and even if I do go back to work, I won't let that area go. It is important to me to give my children a good education, and I do not feel tha the ps are doing a decent job of that. Our 9 y/o son told me the other day that he was reading his "Bible Story" book in class and his teacher told him that he wasn't allowed to say "God or Jesus" in school. My rebuttal was that he may read his book if he chooses and to let anyone know that he is a Christian, and it is his right to say "God or Jesus" anywhere and anytime he pleases. I wanted to take him out of school that day, but dh told me to calm my German/Irish/Cherokee/Sioux temper (LOL!) and let him be for the last 10 days.

The 12 y/o came home yesterday to tell us of a boy that stole a Capri Sun from another young man at schol and the Police man that is always in their school, actually made the child cry infront of the class, then made fun of him while he was crying... granted, the child is a bully (I know him), but to have a grown man stand over him screaming at him is unacceptable, in my opinion.

She also told me that this boy's 11 y/o brother was removed from the lunch room because he was trying to put his hand up a girls shirt, and she was letting him (because they are supposedly "going out")! AAAARRRgggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is this world coming to?

Thank You God, for 1 week of school left and my children will be home and safe, where they belong.

Oh! And in the city right next to us, a man raped and killed a 16 y/o girl yesterday. He was released from prison on a rape charge in 2005 (after serving time) and in January, was convicted of 3 child molestations, but was out on bond...now a little girl is dead.

Some days are just too much to take anymore......

God bless all of you!

Huh....today is chilly out, and our road in front of our house is being repaved. Not that one has anything to do with the other, just my blogging thoughts are running full force into one another in my blogging mind.

Mom just came in and wondered where all the cars were... She was in rare form yesterday, Very, very teary for some reason. Don't know what was going on.

Amelia and I went to the library yesterday after we took her to get her PPD a tthe hospital. She is going to be a candy striper there for her volunteering opportunities. Poor little gal turned beet red, then pure white, tears began to flow and the nurse and I had to fan her...we though she was going to faint!

Anyway, then we went to the library, and got some videos and some books. I am going ot brush up on my  Algebra for the TEAS test for nursing this coming fall. I have already taken one, and was accepted in to the nursing program at my old college for an Associate degree RN, but  I want to see if I can score higher if I take the test again, so I can be accepted into a smaller class this coming spring. For those of you who know me, I was 2 semesters away from graduating with my Bachelor degree when Mom got sick and  I failed a class by 2 points and was dismissed from the program. But I guess the Lord was telling me that I need to be with her right now, and I can accept that. I will finish this spring with my Associate's. It's all good. Mom comes first.

Anyhoo~ Like I said, I can always use the brushing up on my Algrbra skills because Amelia will also be going to a high school level this year, and we will be studying Algebra with her. So it will behoove me to know it for her sake too!

Much love to you all, it's time for Mom's feeding!

God bless and thank you all for your gracious thoughts and prayers!

 

Hello Dear Life!

Well today I am officially finished with feeling sorry for myself and for my angry feelings with my brother who cannot possibly ever help me with our Mom.

I had been feeling down in the dumps lately, mostly related to my not graduating on the 11th after 4 long years of college, and financial reasons that I shall not disclose, we are INCREDIBLY in debt. So many things to be distraught over......

But this past week, we had a church revival. I feel revived!

Not that I won't ever again have feelings of loss or of being used, or of disappointment. But from now on, I intend to ask the Lord for the blessings He has in store for me, each and every day. We need to ask to receive, and I shall. I have discovered that when I spend time in prayer and thoughtfulness first thing in the morning, but even throughout the day, that my day turns out to be a blessing, with little in the way of my happiness. Things are smooth with the children, and daily events with Mom are not such a strain.

Yes, we are still going to have our finincial worries and there will always be times of stress, but with the Lord Jesus Christ, on Whom we can always depend, gives us daily doses of strength and patience, dosed strongly with perseverence.

Thank you God for loving me! And thank You God for my children and my Mom.....make me a stronger person in faith and in life so I can be the caregiver that You intended me to be.